Eh, is it normal to be emotionally vulnerable once people are involved in relationships?
Somehow, I always found myself crying during the days near anniversary. Which is weird. Because the tears I have shed within this year is more than I had in my whole life already. But it’s not always the sad reasons for my tears, as some involved… the warmth and touching words & actions from that stupid wood-block-pooh. :p
Apparently, I am emotionally weak and yet… trying to gain more and more strength to survive in this bittersweet moments.
As much as I wanted to describe this feeling, I couldn’t. I am stumbled over words. It’s kinda confusing and weird because I don’t really understand what the reasons are behind all these overwhelming emotions.
Did I just release all my hidden emotions that I hid away from others for the past years of my life that eventually becomes an explosion to someone whom I could not hide? =\
/bleh. I don’t know. Haha.
What I know is, it’s good to have you, no matter how much weird tears. Though I don’t know whether you really did understand what I was thinking… still… Love you. (:
Some people just don’t learn the ways of being sensitive, right? Seriously, sometimes I hate pictures. And why is it always the same people? =\
Anyways, watching the last sequel/special of LOVE HINA already.
MWHAHAHAHAHAHA…
But I have to study for Histmo already (hopefully, I really DO study). =(
It’s so weird to feel tired and forgetful these few days, when there’s much to be done. Like how I forgot about the meeting ytd but yet managed to crash the CH and rmbed it. -.- Oh ya, Z CHEN campus concert on Thursday… and I totally forgot about it and agreed to a kbox trip with my classmates. Bleh. >.<
Blah blah blah… I want to eat Tom Yam Ban Mian!!!!!!!!!!! zzz…
I’m getting damn dizzy and lethargic right now = I’m feeling sick.
Mood ain’t getting any better, even after watching animes. >.< I shouldn’t have watched “School Days”, eff-ing sick anime. wtf. I need some comedies to ease my irritation.
Especially after trying to scan/recover files on my hard disk for 72 hours straight, and nothing could be read, needless to say recover. & all my portfolio videos are inside, school work are inside, documents are inside, animes are inside, notes are inside… just damn sianz.
I suddenly feel that I need to go back to my otaku life. I have been too busy this 2 weeks break, trying to catch up. To my disappointment, there’s actually a few that don’t appreciate. For one thing that gets on my nerves almost immediately is the repeatence of complaints about stupid things & unappreciative attitude. _|_
Sigh. Eff-ing dizzy. I can’t stop rambling crap. =(
Ahhhhh… >.< & I didn’t manage to go for the BBQ tonight. TT________TT I wanted to catch up with the IAP people but… =(
Okay, a heartwarming post after these few days of down-ness. =)
Sorry & Thank You to those who understand what’s happening to me, especially dar. I think you are really really really the most ultimate victim of my emotions. Haha. *hugs*
Really a big thanks to those who listened to my rants, told me that it’s okay cuz shit just happens & give me the best support that I wanted. YEAH MAN, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!
Even though I am such a wilful and stubborn and sensitive brat who gets worked up for something small. XD
The dinner with those old friends ain’t that awkward as I thought. In fact, I feel much happier right now, after all those bad days of mine after catching up with the girls. =)
It feels good. To talk like how we were before & joke like those days of chidish period, even though changes are still inevitable.
=)
Hahaha… I can’t recognize Jian Kai even after two looks and he’s rambling about it. Sorry! =x And Audrey~~~ didn’t really change. Hahaha… still as sassy and rowdy. ^^ Caifeng too, still as friendly. =) Alfred is still as weird and full of cold jokes. =.= Oh, and the bday boy Willy & his gf, I can’t imagine seeing another couple like them again. lol. =x
That’s all for today.
P/S to dears: Sorry if I seemed to be too childish. But I still think it’s really frustrating to be left out. Like I said, it’s not about participating, but being remembered or asked. I don’t know. I am kinda sensitive with these issues. It’s not the first time I felt like that, you know? Really, have you put yourself into my shoes during that time? I really don’t know. But sorry for making a fuss. =\ Sigh.
P/P/S: Please understand that I have bad daySSSSS. >.>
I have been feeling damn shitty for the whole last night, to be honest.
Even though I ranted to some friends… and surprisingly, everyone has the experience of being left out and it’s damn effing sucky feeling ever.
I don’t understand why making a call/sms is so difficult.
Sometimes, it’s not about participating, but being asked, being remembered.
I am probably not that kind of person then.
The only times when I am called out is always when I asked for it. What logic?
Not the first time already anyway. Not the first time I made a fuss too. =\
I slept at 2am, with a freaking headache and swollen eyes. And thanks to my mom, I have to woke up at 8am to listen to that damn irritating noisy mop sound in my room for 20 minutes, and I can’t fall asleep anymore.
