寻找缺乏幸福病的解药

Sometimes, I just feel like I am at the wrong place doing the wrong things. As much as my interests lay on the media productions, I just can’t feel any passion towards my studies now.

In fact, I am envious and jealous of people who are actually doing the AUTHEUTIC 2D animation in their course.

Screw Maya. It’s not the first time I hate it anyway. But SCREW IT! WHY AM I EVEN DOING 3D GRAPHICS?!

Why the hell am I even here? I admit 3D graphics are cool and everything in hit now but I always think that 2D ANIMATION WAS MY GOAL. But then again… after months and months, my passion has gone down a great deal. Now I am not even sure 2D animation is going to be what I am going to do in the future.

I am confused. =\

I don’t even know it’s possible to survive with my skills and passion at this point of time. This feeling sucks to core man. Seriously, I think I am screwing up my life.

If only I am rich. DAMN.

LOL @ JUNSU!!! Bigeaststation psychological tests always crack me up so much. XD

[credits: dbsgdec @ soompi]

Bigeastation15 — Psych test! Junsu and Changmin’s MENTAL AGE
[Yoochun] Question: Right now, right infront of you is an apple tree. How many apples are there on that tree?
[Junsu] This is a bit tricky… ONE!
[Changmin] One?
[Junsu] Yes, one!
[Changmin] Why so, Junsu?
[Junsu] Why, because I was thinking one might be better.
[Yoochun] What about Junsu.. no! Changmin, Changmin?
[Changmin] If one apple is taken then…
[Junsu] It has to be quantity again, right?
[Changmin] Of course its quantity! More! Only then it is a real apple tree.
[Junsu] How many?
[Changmin] Before its 10, so now its 100.
[Junsu] A hundred? So…
[Junsu] Answer?
[Yoochun] Ok, answer. This psychological test represents your…
[Changmin] What?
[Junsu] What is it?
[Yoochun] MENTAL AGE!
*laughter ^^*
[Junsu] Am I one year old?
[Changmin] Junsu one year old!
[Junsu] This is… Changmin is…
[Yoochun, Changmin] 100 years old!
[Junsu] That sure is old. Changmin, he has a mature face and his mental age is also very… advance.
[Changmin] Speaking of that, Junsu’s mental age is…
[Yoochun] The one year old…
[Junsu] I am the one year old Junsu, yes. XD

Bigeastation15 — Psych test! If TVXQ talk to an ALIEN?
[Changmin] All of a sudden, in front of, you a UFO…
[Junsu] UFO, ah…
[Yoochun] U-FO…
[Changmin] A UFO appears and out came an alien. If the alien talks, what would you say to it?
[Junsu] I would…? To an alien?
[Changmin] If there is an alien.
[Yoochun] A UFO space alien.
[Changmin] Uh. Anything is fine.
[Junsu] “Soccer suki?” ( “Do you like soccer?”) * LOL ^^
*laughter ^^
[Changmin] Ok, Yoochun?
[Yoochun] “Soccer suki??”
[Junsu] “Do you know about soccer?” or “Do you like soccer?”
[Yoochun] For me, I’d say “We are Tohoshinki!”
[Junsu] Is that so? That isn’t bad. Why? Why are you laughing?
[Yoochun] “We are Tohoshinki.” or…
[Junsu] “We are Tohoshinki.” For me, “Do you like soccer?”
[Yoochun] What is it, The answer?
[Changmin] The question, actually, is what you’d say to the opposite gender. *HAHAHHAA
[Yoochun] Eh? To the opposite gender?
[Junsu] Saying “Do you like soccer?”… to the opposite gender??
[Changmin] The first time meeting Junsu, he goes “Do you like soccer?”
[Yoochun] I…
[Junsu] Suddenly..
[Yoochun] Me…
[ALL] “We are Tohoshinki!”
*hahhahaa
[Junsu] That was pretty fun~
[Yoochun, Changmin] That was really fun!
[Junsu] I’ve always wanted to do this.
^^

trans crdt to : goess

I tend to have this weird habit of skipping lessons (especially my Japanese lessons) whenever it’s a lesson before a test on the next. Should it be me being not passionate enough? Not concerned with it enough? Or… I don’t know, I’m just plain lazy?

=\

Blahs. Whatever so. *shrugs*

Haha. But yeah, I don’t think anyone will care how many lessons I skipped anyway. I am just bored thus I am writing nonsense again. It’s not really a good thing for me to have a lot free time in my hand, because I can’t help it but to slack and rot like nobody’s business. That’s why I am writing crap now, you see. lol.

I ain’t really a passionate person, maybe that’s why I enjoy slacking at home more than anything else. Quite an irritant characteristic of me, I know. Because I can always feel lazy to do anything, even family or friends can’t surpass my self-centered-ness. The fact is… I don’t really bother.

Maybe I need some hot-blooded genes. LOL!

Okay, third post? Or fourth? of the day? =\

Yeah man, I feel so lazy to talk these days but I just can’t help it to keep typing non-stop. Weird… =\ Sigh. Sianz… But I just need to rant out somewhere!!!!!!!!!

Cuz it’s really frustrating to see your own money keep disappearing, and then you will keep seeing food, clothes and stuffs appearing everywhere. =.=

I swear, I wasn’t that of a spendthrift before I know how to shop online, or maybe even before I have iBanking. TMD. I think I am going broke because of this 2 reasons lor! >_< But somehow, friends are tempting me with things too. BLAHS!!!! DAMN SAD.

Or is it me who has this problem of self-control?

ARGH!!!! I need to change back to my old self - the orh-biang and money-minded me, then maybe I could save all the money back into my account. =((((

Bluhs. So sianz to see credit everywhere in my bank book without any debit. =.=

I can totally bang the wall. =\

I am even scared to ask my mom to help me update it… because I am seriously spending too much this 2 months.

I need to save up!!! SAVE UP!!! SAVE UP!!! =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I don’t know why things become this way, but is it just so awkward for me? I must have dug those stupid pits and jump in without hesitation. This is getting weirder and weirder.

Wow.

I know TVXQ sings damn awesome-ly, even during live performances but this…

totally rocks my world.

I swear I can feel my heart trembling when I watched this. Seriously, this is damn awesome performance. The more I watch this, the more I believe TVXQ belongs to the stage.

It’s actually quite an accidental chance to watch this video, but maybe because I am influenced by こども, when I saw mickytoho uploaded this live performance of Love In The Ice, I just click on it sub-consciously.

AND I SWEAR THIS IS EVEN BETTER THAN WHAT THEY SANG IN THEIR ALBUM!!! (Though I still think that Kissした、まま、さよなら sounds better in the album, lol.)

I watched quite some videos of their live performances (I am sucker to live singing, remember?) , and this one is really really really breathtaking.

P/S: Yeah, and I heard of their newest photobooks. Once again, damn freaking expensive so I will just got to set my eyes on their 4th Korean album because I have to SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!!!

And this new song… Box in the ship

is pretty… LOL! I dunno… very disney!!!! XD

Woots. I am fangirling over and over again. But this time… a girl band, BENNIE K.

BENNIE K is a J-Urban female duo that consists of rapper CICO and vocalist YUKI, who both love American hip-hop music. They met while YUKI was in Los Angeles undergoing voice training. They made their debut in January, 2001 with the single Melody, released on the For Life Music label.

[Credits: Wikipedia]

A freaking good Jpop girl band. Well, I won’t describe their music as Jpop but more of American-style of hiphop with Japanese elements in it? ^^

Haha. They are like… in this industry for 7 years already? And I only found their music now. LOL! But then again, I am just a newbie to Jpop or even Kpop (even though I craze over them). haha. Their BEST OF THE BESTEST is damn nice!!!!~~~ And their english is so freaking better than any other Japanese singers =X Oops, it’s rude… but true. keke. =P

I like this song! “SKY“!!! Lalalalalala~~~~ It has the impact on me. MWHAHAHAHAHA!!!

If I didn’t remember wrongly, THSK has a song with the same name too. LOL! =P

Oh oh oh!!! AND THEIR LIVE IS GOOD TOO!!!!!!!! ^^ (I am a sucker to concerts’ atmosphere cuz it just makes me feel so high!!! WOOTS!!!!) Even though I think they can do better. =X

BENNIE K WOOTS!!!! ^^

Bad day - Daniel Powter

Now I remember how I get to know this song and love it… It’s him. =)

And I really love the way this MV is being filmed, very detailed and organized yet very arty farty. ^^ I think it’s really damn gorgeous, especially the graphics part. Okay, maybe I am a arty farty junkie but yeah, I love this song not only because of it’s MV but also its lyrics. It just make me feels good even though it’s a “sad” song? haha. Yeah… Lovely lyrics, love it. Pretty weird that I like the verses rather than the chorus. MWHAHAHAHAHA!!! XD

Oh, and even though I was laughed at because I only know this english song (but the fact is I can’t remember clearly which english songs I knew. lol), “Bad Day” is definitely one of my favourite english songs out there. But oh wells, maybe I am just not the exposed to english songs. LOL!

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces everytime
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

I saw this post on spazzes@wordpress (OMG, I SIMPLY LOVE SPAZZES!!!! ALWAYS SO UPDATED AND FOREVER HAVE FREAKING GOOD STUFF TO SHARE!!!!)…

and I totally love Junsu’s family!!! It’s just “Oh my freaking goodness, why are they all so talented???” XD

Even though I am feeling kinda weird to see video of Junsu in his house/someone’s house… sort of… invading someone’s privacy? (There’s even a full load of pictures of Junsu and his cousin… keke)

But but but… all of them are so talented in singing, it’ll be a waste not to share, right? KEKE!!!! I am totally contradicting myself. bluhs. But anyway, hmmm… yar… I don’t know what to say any more… I am speechless at my own words. haha. XD

Anyways, Junsu’s mom and cousin are both damn pretty too AND THEIR SINGING IS DAMN NICE!!! I love the part when Junsu & his cousin are singing in sync and harmonization. <3<3<3

Though Junsu’s t-shirt looks a bit too small for him. Hahaha… But I don’t mind, because he is quite muscular so I guess it’s much of a pleasant scene. =P

Lalalala~~~

Okay, I don’t feel like talking about the awkwardness these days so I am going to spam my blog with YOGA!!! XD MWHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I didn’t really listen to his album despite it has been in my iTunes for quite some weeks, but after listening to his live 残酷月光 at KXLL, I AM TOTALLY ADDICTED TO HIS ALBUM!!!!!

Unlike the usual pop songs in the present Taiwan music industry, Yoga’s album is definitely unique and nice in its own way and I really like the choice of the songs in it. Hahaha… As I am really a person who prefer the lyrics over the melodies, Yoga’s songs definitely catches my eye with its really poetic and abstract yet understandable lyrics. <3<3<3

神秘嘉宾

伯乐

病态

Yoga’s 病态 really reminds me of Eason! I mean… it’s obviously similar style of song as Eason’s, though I think this song is really cute (actually it isn’t meant to be “cute”, but lol… *shrugs*).

And of course, I shall not leave out 眼色, which has 2 versions of MVs （纯色版／翼色版）and I supposed people should know why there’s 2 versions already right? MWHAHAHA… If you don’t know, I will just put the 翼色版 MV below and you people can judge yourself. [WARNING: It's M18]

眼色

Mind you, it’s a chinese industry after all, even though I think even the 翼色版 MV is not even as “exciting” as what my classmates watched. rofl. =P

Anyways, I think the only word that I can find to describe this very first album of Yoga must be “eccentric”, in a good way though. ^^ It’s really worth listening and I think it’s one of those magical albums that would make me wanna listen over and over again. Cuz the more I listen to it, the more I like it. hee!

And I think I am addicted to 残酷月光, but maybe it’s just that I keep hearing it over and over again whenever I watch Yoga on any variety shows.

OH!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! I must mention his episode in MFBBT, it was so damn hilarious during Awei/William/Louis part!!!! I was madly laughing at them literally, especially when the toy ambulance barges in!!!! XD So damn funny lor!!!! MWHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Hmmmmmm… I think people will be very pissed off with me after reading this entry. =\

It’s impossible to force me to talk when I don’t want to, because I will just simply keep quiet and let the atmosphere to be awkward to death. =\ That’s probably one of my ways to get people to shut up though. Hahs. =X

And… as I am going to be PMS-ing for the next few days due to monthly girls’ problem, I guess I will just let the situation be as dead as now, cuz I have no energy to act nice now.

For some reasons, I am really fussy when it comes to people’s character. And yeah… here’s top 10 (not ranked accordingly).

Characteristics I hate:

1] Complaining to me like I am a trash bin (which my mom totally did to me) and gets me overloaded with it. Eventually, the overloading will lead to my burst and then I will just start to stay away from this kind of people.

2] Repeating the same stuff over and over again. It just gets on my nerves, just that I don’t usually say out or show it.

3] Acts like they know me well. Cuz I swear! NO ONE ever knows me, even myself.

4] Try to control me. Well, literally.

5] Tell me things that is totally NONE OF MY BUSINESS. *roll eyes*

6] Jump into conclusions when they don’t even know what REALLY happened.

7] Say sorry after they hurt others deeply (i.e. isolating them). It’s pretty useless actually, I will just stay a bit of distance away from these people and lead my own life.

8] Acts like they’re my good friend when we’re just… normal acquaintances. Obviously friends don’t usually get courteous with each other, I don’t understand why some idiots don’t get it when my distant-ness is so freaking obvious.

9] Bitching A LOT like WTF?

10] NOTHING, I just can’t click with them naturally.

I really don’t want to be like this but I just don’t want to face the confrontations that I wouldn’t be able to answer. I just want to keep quiet and lead my life, what’s so wrong about it? AND YEA, I AM ESCAPING BASICALLY.

Blehx. I feel so tired about these and I really don’t like people guilt-trapping me.

And yeah… I am kinda pissed off when people thinks that I MUST be nice and kind, which is like… O_O wth is wrong with you!

WHERE THE HELL DID YOU SEE THE ANGEL WINGS ON ME??? *roll eyes* The wings just belong to the devil who’s disguised in me. PLEASE ERASE THE HALO IN UR MIND, I AM NOT AT ALL A HOLY SAINT.

Tell me what’s supposed to be right and what’s supposed to be wrong? Sorry that I just can’t understand, seriously. I thought this is my life, my thoughts and my decisions.

EMO MODE.